Thursday, July 31, 20087:26:00 PM
today had common test. it was kindda easy. at least most of the qns/subqns i can do. except for qns 2a) i don't know how to do. it's so hard. i try for like 15mins without knowing it. then i quickly chiong the remaining ones. haii.. i was so sleepy today, at least more sleepy than yesterday. 'cause i haven't been sleeping well for two days in a row. i really want to sleep today. but i not sure if i will hu2 si1 luan4 xiang3 again. if i that happens.. my left hand can say byebye tomorrow liao. all red and maybe painful. been biting myself lately. it's something like cutting wrist. but this doesn't involve blood and works as well as it (i think). i know it's wrong la. but i really cannot find a way to stop myself from being so sad. so depressed. so crazy.
after school had another maths test. couldn't think straight after finishing it. was too tired!! use too much brain liao.. it's hard can.. some more counted in ca2. sure die de lor.. haii.. i seriously don't know what to do with myself anymore.. haii.. i still can't open my mouth and say it out to him.. i can't even sms it out.. haii.. i need courage!! haii.. tomorrow got cca.. i think i will die.. emo there most of the time. and giving people qian4 bian2 de feeling.. i hope no one will feel offended.. i really cannot control my feelings. it's always written on my face de.. haii..
i promise i will be happier from now on.. i will think on the positive side (but not over-positive side). i believe in him.. i trust him.. i will believe him.. i will trust him.. there's no way anything can go wrong. I BELIEVE!!
buaiibuaii XD heh..
I BELIEVE!!
