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Thursday, July 31, 20089:54:00 PM

i'm thinking of stuffs again.. i'm so greedy.. i want more and more yet i don't want to give any.. i wondered how you can tahan me for all these months.. i really really appreciate it.. but i have difficulties expressing myself.. i don't know how to.. and even if i do.. i also would be too paiseh to do it.. i'm so scared i will laughed at.. i'm sorry.. i can't promise you that it will be worth the wait or not.. but will you wait for me? wait until the day i can show you how i really really feel..

buaiibuaii.. i'm not hoping for a reply.. but if u do thanks..
iloveyou..

7:56:00 PM

found this song on Lin Jing's blog.. was bloghopping and.. erm.. nevermind.. just found on her blog.. this song.. Tonight by FM static.. it's nice la.. some of it is how i felt sometimes.. maybe that's why i liked it.. alot..

Tonigh - FM static

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

hmm.. for me.. maybe is not tonight but yesterday..
yesterday night i've fallen and i can't get up
i need you loving hands to come and pick me up
lols.. haii.. was kind of bored.. so i posted this song.. haha.. play the imeem player to hear the song. i didn't set it to auto play.. heh.. haii..

7:26:00 PM

today had common test. it was kindda easy. at least most of the qns/subqns i can do. except for qns 2a) i don't know how to do. it's so hard. i try for like 15mins without knowing it. then i quickly chiong the remaining ones. haii.. i was so sleepy today, at least more sleepy than yesterday. 'cause i haven't been sleeping well for two days in a row. i really want to sleep today. but i not sure if i will hu2 si1 luan4 xiang3 again. if i that happens.. my left hand can say byebye tomorrow liao. all red and maybe painful. been biting myself lately. it's something like cutting wrist. but this doesn't involve blood and works as well as it (i think). i know it's wrong la. but i really cannot find a way to stop myself from being so sad. so depressed. so crazy.

after school had another maths test. couldn't think straight after finishing it. was too tired!! use too much brain liao.. it's hard can.. some more counted in ca2. sure die de lor.. haii.. i seriously don't know what to do with myself anymore.. haii.. i still can't open my mouth and say it out to him.. i can't even sms it out.. haii.. i need courage!! haii.. tomorrow got cca.. i think i will die.. emo there most of the time. and giving people qian4 bian2 de feeling.. i hope no one will feel offended.. i really cannot control my feelings. it's always written on my face de.. haii..

i promise i will be happier from now on.. i will think on the positive side (but not over-positive side). i believe in him.. i trust him.. i will believe him.. i will trust him.. there's no way anything can go wrong. I BELIEVE!!

buaiibuaii XD heh.. I BELIEVE!!