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Tuesday, July 29, 20089:38:00 PM

i seriously hate my life.. nothing i do seems right.. i was looking forward to talking to that person.. and now i said something wrong.. and everything goes wrong.. so is lying or telling the truth better.. i really don't know.. i can't handle anything now.. i really need a break.. some one please help me.. but no one cares.. just let me die..

7:58:00 PM

i spent the last few hours reading my previous blog posts. and i realised i was so much more mature than i am now. seriously i don't know what happened to me. i suddenly felt like last year was a better year for me instead of now ( no offence. ). it's not about the classes and friends. it's about my thinking and attitude. i need to change. but in 2K is very hard to change. haii.. also last year only got one problem now got tons and tons and tons.

tomorrow will be a better day right? haii.. i really wish it would. i hate laughing for no reasons. i hate smiling for the wrong reasons. i hate being sad for some reasons. okay.. i'm now just being lame for no reason cause i'm bored and no one can entertain me now. i have art test tomorrow. i hope it goes well. but i don't think so. i haven't finish my 2 drafts and my research. suppose to wait for Jing to come online. so can print her fonts or something.

other than waiting for her.. i am waiting for some one else too.. but i don't think that person knows.. am i doing the right thing? i need someone to err.. just be there and not comment on anything.. haii.. need someone to listen to my rubbish.. haii.. nevermind.. i go art liaos..

buaiibuaiix!! haha okok.. tts how i end off last time.. just for fun.. haha.. buhbye..

4:54:00 PM

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

4:49:00 PM

i did something that was wrong..
i saw something that was wrong..
i deserved to be alone..
many things happened..
and i cannot catch up with the speed..
did i think too much?
or is this really happening?

i cannot make it stop..
'cause it will make some one else feel terrible..
i think i will bear with it..
even though the ending to it..
i won't like it at all..

- I WAN YOU TO STOP IT..
I CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER..
I ADMIT IM TOO TIMID TO TELL U FACE TO FACE
BUT PLEASE STOP IT..
won you quit it for me? T.T