Thursday, October 16, 20085:02:00 PM
these days are the saddest days of my life..
been crying alot..
cause of results and cause of him..
why did it all happen at the same time..
the results and his words just so hurtful..
they are like knifes liddat.. keep stabbing me..
they just want to see me cry.. so keep stabbing me..
haii.. i keep glueing back.. then they keep makin cuts..
haii.. now i don feel like glueing back..
even though alot people want me to be happi..
but just so hard.. haii..
every little sad news.. i will cry one..
haii.. i need some one to talk to... i need!!
but please some one very close to me.. haii..
why you think that i don't care about you when i really do.. haii..
make me feel like watever i did last time was useless.. and not needed..
haii.. i don't deserve any happiness anyway.. haii..
maybe i should be happi that things actually happens to me..
at least im not forgotten.. haii..
i don't want to be emo.. but everytime u make me emo de..
haii.. sort of like my world revolves around yours..
every thing u do affect me.. every thing u say affect me.. haii..
even if is small stuff.. i can emo about it also..
i just cant help it.. you matter too much to me.. haii..
is this wrong? is this not right? is this too much? tell me!!
i don't want to lie to you that time..
i know u worried abt me and want me go see..
i tot if i say i will go u will feel less worried bahs..
guess i use the wrong method.. haii.. im always wrong.. always..
but in the end i still went.. haii.. cant u forgive me?
haii.. i just don't deserve happiness..
i don't deserve anything..
trying so hard to put every sad news into my sad jar..
but it's piling up.. and it's getting harder to close it..
i've been thinknig..you don't have to love me anymore..i seem to be creating more troubles and problems then making you happi..if leaving me is the best way to make you happi..i don't mind it at all.. 就让我一个人承受它。
