Tuesday, August 26, 20088:15:00 PM
these few days has been my worst days.. i really really am reckless in making decisions.. and it's all my fault for having my worst days.. haii.. i really don't know what i was thinking.. haii.. i think i didn't think at all and let my emotions get control of me.. i was very mad.. very angry.. and very depressed.. and all i was thinking to make your life miserable bahs.. but.. it didn't work at all.. not a single bit bahs.. instead i made myself more miserable.. i was more depressed than ever.. i was more angry at myself.. i reli.. wanted to die.. i kip lookin at the scissors.. i stab and i will die.. yay.. haii.. i kept thinking.. die le i won have to face myself or anyone.. won have to face wat is going to happen.. haii.. then i took the scissors.. i was abt to stab myself lor.. kindda scary thinking about it again.. then.. i starting shaking damn badly.. reli reli shaking alot.. then i cried.. i dropped the scissors.. haii.. im scared to die bahs.. im so coward.. haii.. this happened ytd in the toilet.. so my mom didn't know about it.. lucky.. haii..
so i was going to see what was gonna happen today.. i saw you.. we cross paths.. but i couldn't look you in the eye.. i kept staring at you every time i could.. im reli pathetic.. haii.. and.. even though it was okay le.. but.. i tink nothing's gonna be the same again.. will it? i really don't know.. i hope it will be the same.. i really hope it would.. im very tired.. haii.. what do you tink of me? im irritating? do you hate me? arghh.. im doing it again.. i better not think.. haii..
i hope that you will forget what i did these few days.. i hope i didn't make you sad or angry or anyth.. im sorry..
buaiibuaii.. sorry for those people who read this and feel irritated.. sorry..
after these few days.. i found out.. i reali cant live without you.. iloveyou..
