Wednesday, July 30, 20089:05:00 PM
i'm still thinking about it.. when can i ever stop?!?! i know the chances of that happening is very little.. but people can become bad cant they? i'm so confused.. argh.. i want to cry but i cannot cry.. and tomorrow's my math's common test.. and i'm still thinking about these stuffs.. haii.. i was thinking that maybe saying it face to face would be a better solution but.. i don't think he wants to hear about it.. even if he wants.. i won't even dare to say it out.. being truthful is hard.. cause i know it will hurt him when i say it out.. haii.. I'M CONFUSED.. HELP ME.. maybe i will ask yijing to be my LC too.. sob sob.. haii.. she's good can.. haii.. YIJING!!! T.T sob sob..
-----------could you just spend more time with me..at least, more than u do with other people..i just cant help but get jealous..i know it's silly.. and you probably won't read this..but i really really need you now..please.. T.T-----------
7:03:00 PM
today was damn sleepy cause i didn't really sleep much yesterday. was too occupied thinking about some things and i'm still thinking about it now. i sort of ask yijing about it la. and she thinks it's not really right the way i behaved cause it's nothing much. but hsiao lan got this feeling before also. she say it's fine.. i'm so confused now. yijing so mature can. i wish i was like that too. maybe then i won't emo about useless stuffs anymore. haii.. i will break free one day.... (i hope..)
today was photo taking la.. so fun can.. early in the morning.. can see most of the girl one by one come in then got stuff toys with them.. biggest was carolyn's bear bear. kindda cute.. but i liked jairia's pooh.. more cute.. BUT STITCH CUTEST!! haha.. lols.. but the photography abit angry or something.. keep scolding us.. i think cause he took too much photos today then grumpy grumpy.. lols.. haii.. i got to sit beside yijing!! yay!! heh.. lols.. i wanted to sit/stand beside her in the first place. lols.. haii.. then fun photo kindda nice la.. heh.. lols.. im SOOOOOOOOOO gonna buy the pictures this year la.. haha..
after school had to go do survey.. haii.. damn sianed.. the questions some repeat de lor.. then got 14pages.. what the crap la.. haii.. but got air con to enjoy.. haha.. yay.. after that waited for while then go home.. haha.. during the wait lee sheng come to 2k.. lols.. talk to yijing i guess.. O.o.. haha.. he was very troubled.. lols.. and yanjun threw a pikachu at me.. HE IS GONNA GET IT TOMORROW MAN!! -.-
haii.. i'm still so sad.. over that thingy.. haii.. i don't dare tell anybody about it.. it's just so freaking silly.. i think if i tell out.. they will like laugh or something.. haii.. sob sob.. haii..
nevermind.. haii..
buaiibuaii.. T.T
